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December 6th, 2009

Somehow things seem more clear, yet more muddled all at the same time in my head. It's just one of those nights where my head feels like it's spinning within itself with thought. I hate that I overthink everything all the time.

Have I mentioned I hate Sunday nights? It always makes me feel like I wanna run away somewhere, just so I don't have to face the week. I need a schedule where Mondays are free, or at least something I can look forward to doing at work every week.

I want to be out on my own. I saw a few friends condos/apartments over the weekend and they were nice. Very nice actually. I'm guessing they were quite spendy. I'm not even asking for anything close to that nice. If there isn't a way for me to get a place soon, something's wrong. It's nights like these where I want my own place. I just need space and to not have to worry about being quiet or adjusting to other people's schedules.

I played a bit of guitar earlier, even tried writing a song. I want to get more comfortable doing that. I've been neglecting my poor instrument too long.

I really don't need another boring day at work tomorrow. Hopefully it will be a bit more eventful than the second half of last week. I'm starting to wish I worked a bit closer to everyone I know. Just so lunch/after work would be easier to see people and less lame.

I got to go to Leavenworth on Saturday for the day. It was fun. It's really not much more than a day trip as far as I could tell. I'm happy I went though and I'm happier that I went with who I did. Hooray for new friends and adventures! I've made my into a new circle of friends who are pretty great. I hope to have more weekends with them.

December 5th, 2009

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I has teh crazy. Worked the laser shows tonight, and it was a fairly decent shift (we debuted Laser Michael Jackson! WITH LASER SKELETONS DANCING TO THRILLER!), up until the final Pink Floyd Show that is. I was zoning out, kicking myself over grad school (as per usual), asking why it was taking so long (as per usual), questioning this mental block I seem to have about getting shit done (as per...y'know). Suddenly I was overcome by an all-consuming sense of dread. The planetarium is not huge, but it's pretty big and even that felt claustrophobic. It took me a moment to realize, "Oh shit, am I having a panic attack again? Lessee, the heart is racing...feel like I'm gonna die...yep. It's a panic attack. Shit." I was tempted to get in my car and drive, but I came home. Now I'm nursing the last of a bottle of wine, still feeling on edge, but damn it I am not going to bed. Not until I get at least ONE grad school application in. I'll stay awake all weekend if I have to (thank god I don't work!), because really am I going to sleep anyway until I get this off of my mind?


This book was soo good. Basically this book is about teens rising from the dead and not being welcomed back, even by their own families. This strange phenomenon is only happening to teens and only in the United States and no one can explain why. At Oakvale High School, they are accepting these teens into their community as well as in their schools, and many kids and parents do not appreciate this. The main character is Phoebe who falls in love with the "zombie leader" Tommy. Its about their entanglement of trying to be together despite everyone else's views on the matter including her best friend Adam who is in love with her.

This book is part of a series and it is book one. I really enjoyed this book, because it isn't your typical love story. Tommy and Adam pretty much profess their love for Phoebe where as Phoebe doesn't know what she feels for Tommy and is completely in the dark about Adam. I think i enjoyed it the most because of that fact. You had to keep reading to figure out what she was thinking and what these "worm-heads" were going through.

Now i don't really know if it was the pressure of trying to finish this book in time that it wont lapse into my school work, or if i am just booked out (doubt it) but for some reason it seemed like such a slow book, even though it interested me and i wanted to read it. Yea i know it doesn't make sense to me either. I thought for sure that i might not have a good review on it and that i wouldn't end up buying the second book, but once you get to the last ehh fifteen chapters, you are totally engorged into it and you can't wait to get your hands on the second book to find out what happens. If they didn't put the first two chapters of book two at the end i think i would have had to make a late night drive to walmart to read what happens. It is a really big cliff hanger.

Overall: I feel that this book is really good. I feel though that you need to make time to read it or you wont full satisfaction of it, like i am unfortunately feeling at the moment. I definitely recommend this book and say it is worth the read.

Rating: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ 4/5


DISCLAIMER!!
1. Did You receive this book for free?
No i did not, i paid for it with my own money on borders.com.
2. Are you getting paid to write this review?
No, i am writing this review for my own health and to help others on their quest for tasty reading.
3. Do you have any affiliation with the company?
I do not have any affiliation with borders, other than being a club member,the publisher, the author, disney or anyone else associated with this book.
4. Is this review in your honest opinion?
Yes, this is my honest to god opinion.

December 3rd, 2009

I was a little surly this morning.

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December 2nd, 2009

I'm on Fire

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There's a reason I wait till the end of the year to put together a list of top 10 albums from the past 12 months. No, it's not finals. It's the fact that new and exciting music can come to light even in the last four weeks.

You'll find out what's on the list. But not yet.




In other news, I had a pudding today. Pistachio. In a small plastic cup. Now, it was not the best pudding in the world, but someone had taken the care to make it more than just a pudding in a cup. A dollop of whipped cream and a sprinkle of sliced almonds had been added. The thought made me all warm inside. Little things that people care about make me all gooey.

"I told you everything was fine
You called 'bullshit'
And it's not worth money if your heart just isn't in it"

Even when I get home from a night at the bar, I still find myself lying in bed, headphones on, reflecting on things. I'm thinking about people I know, or want to know better (this is me figuring people out the best I can like they're some sort of puzzle, this is how I get along with people, by intellectualizing the situation and logically categorizing them. It's just how I think. *shrug*). I also think about my past and put it in perspective, as well as planning out future events, etc. This is usually why I don't get enough sleep, but it also helps me realize how I'm actually feeling about my life, people I know, or current/past events versus what I think I should be feeling. In other words it's therapeutic for me. This is why I need down time. To think. If too much is going on, it overwhelms me, there isn't enough time to reflect. I think updating this journal might help with my processing my life more effectively, if not, oh well. At least my friends know what I'm thinking...

December 1st, 2009



Hush, Hush is about a girl named Nora Grey who finds herself wickedly attracted to a "bad boy" named Patch, a fallen Angel. The story plot is about her finding out who he really is (a fallen angel) and who the person is who has been trying to kill her. This book starts out and almost ends with sooo many questions. When you start getting towards the end you want to just call the author and yell "WHEN AM I GOING TO FIND OUT ANYTHING!!" but by the end you find everything out. This book was seriously sooo good. I found myself wishing i could be Nora for a day just to see how Patch acts in real life. I read this book in one day, which is really good considering my busy high school schedule.

I am seriously recommending this book to everyone i know. My friend Amanda was talking about buying it, but i think i might just let her borrow it as long as she promises to take good care of it and to not bend the pages. I will kill her!! lol Books are like my kids.

Rating:♥♥♥♥♥5/5


Disclaimer: I dont know if the new FTC disclaimer law relates to book reviews or not, but just in case, because it goes into effect today.
1. I did not get this book for free. I bought it with my own money
2. I am not getting paid to write a review for this book.
3. I do not have any affiliation with Borders inc.
4. This is my honest opinion about the book and it was not coaxed in any way by anyone.

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Pringles, Silent Hill, and Lara Croft doing a strip tease. What.

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Now with more cooking mama.



Apparently these are Japanese commercials. Japan, what the hell.

Germboy, out/Peace.

November 30th, 2009

"...Did it burn as bad for you?
No bottle serves to soothe my wounds."

What a frustrating Monday. Ugh.

I awake to the sound of my phone going off. My boss was on the other end of the line, wondering if I was okay. It was 15 minutes into my shift at work. I book it through morning routine and get to work, all in the span of about a half hour. Most of the work day was just fine after I got settled in. By the end of the day, however I suddenly ran out of time to get things done and I found myself making stupid mistakes. I ended up leaving a little late. I was exhausted.

I also found out ate in the afternoon that The Swellers/Less Than Jake show was cancelled. No reason has been released other than the promoter (a usually solid and reliable one) decided to cancel it. This put a bit of a damper on the evening. Considering I actually bought an advance ticket because I was so excited and I've been listening to The Swellers all month in anticipation. Oh well, I guess. I can use the money for another show I decided.

My sister cheered me up when I got home by making me grilled cheese and leftover goulash. It was just what I needed. We then chilled and laughed a bit. She's the coolest sibling ever. I can't say enough good things about her.

The other highlight of my day was on my lunch break. I often go to the Seatac mall, since it's nearby, indoors (during the warmer months I find somewhere to eat outside, though), has a free dining area, plenty of places to wonder around, and isn't inside of my car. Since I had no time to make a lunch I found a gyro place that sported numerous vegetarian options. So, I ordered a falafel with fried and baklava and chatted with the workers while I had the opportunity to watch them prepare my food (certainly not the case in most fast food places, which is unfortunate). They were very personable and polite. It was refreshing. Plus, I hadn't had decent falafel and baklava in many months.

All in all, the day wasn't a total bust. Though there certainly were some rough moments, particularly coming off such an awesometastic weekend. When it got rough I just reminded myself of the line in Vanilla Sky:

"...without the bitter... the sweet ain't as sweet."

Fallen by Lauren Kate

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The Blurb On The Back:

Daniel’s gaze caught hers, and her breath caught in her throat. She recognised him from somewhere. But she would have remembered meeting someone like him. She would have remembered feeling as absolutely shaken up as she did right now.


But what do you do when the person you’ve spent your whole life looking for keeps slipping out of your grasp? What if the person you are meant to be with can never be yours?

Dangerously addictive and darkly romantic, Fallen is the ultimate gothic love story love story – a page-turning thriller about fallen angels.


The Review (Cut For Spoilers): )

The Verdict:

Teens looking for the next paranormal romance could do worse than this novel (not least because the characters are no different to those typically found in this genre). However, the refusal to explain critical parts of the backstory is frustrating and raises the question as to whether there is enough there to sustain the series.

Cross-posted to [info]urbanfantasyfan.

Foundling by D. M. Cornish

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Growing up at Madam Opera’s Estimable Marine Society for Foundling Boys and Girls, Rossamünd Bookchild – a boy with an unfortunate name – has led sheltered from the dangers of the world. But this all changes the day the man with the strange red-and-pale-blue eyes recruits him into the service of the Emperor. Rossamünd has been drafted into the ranks of the Half-Continent’s “lamplighters” – soldiers who protect the empire’s roads from all evil.

Now Rossamünd must begin the journey of his life, travelling the Half-Continent, a world full of people who can be as predatory as any monster he can imagine. And when he falls in with the mysterious and talented Europe, who can soot electricity out of her body and call lightning down from the sky, he learns that some people can truly be lethal ...


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The Verdict:

This has been one of my favourite reads of the year because the scope of the world building and attention to detail is incredible. The characters are memorable and the ideas that Cornish has are astounding in their originality. This has all the makings of being a classic series that will be loved for years to come.

Chilling Conclusions

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The economy sucks. It's not a full-blown depression yet, but jobs are scarce. I'd know. But it's not just Spokane County or Washington State — it's the whole country that's hurting.

But don't take my word for it — look at this chilling chart.

The entire country is turning black.

That's scary.


Then just today, I stumbled across this one, about Food Stamps recipients across the country (it's about one in eight people who are on food stamps, and one in four children).

That's worrysome.

So, the very next thing that occurred to me: )
Racing the Dark (2007)
Written by: Alaya Dawn Johnson
Genre: YA/Fantasy
Pages: 368 (Trade Paperback)

The premise: this one's a doozy, so we're going to BN.com: Racing the Dark is set in a land of volcanoes and earthquakes, plagues and typhoons, of island nations bound by fear of the spirits they imprisoned to control their volatile environment. Lana, a teenaged girl on a nameless backwater island, finds an ominous blood-red jewel that marks her as someone with power, setting in motion events that drive her away from her family and into an apprenticeship with a mysterious one-armed witch. Lana begins to learn the spells and incantations, each of which requires some form of sacrifice from the person who employs it. As Lana becomes more powerful, she is deceived into a sacrifice she is unwilling to make — the life of her own mother. When Lana dares to use a dark, ancient spell to save her mother's life, she is set onto a path toward becoming a creature beyond her wildest imaginings. This is an unforgettable coming-of-age story set in a world where wielding the power of magic requires understanding the true meaning of sacrifice.

Worth the Cash: even though Racing the Dark features a teenaged protagonist, it doesn't read like a YA novel. For starters, Johnson deals with some adult issues rather nicely. Also, the protagonist(s) grow, both physically and emotionally. Given the amount of time that passes in the course of this book alone, I suspect Lana and the other protagonists will be well into adulthood by time the trilogy draws to a close. Then there's the language issue: YA is sometimes said to have transparent writing styles that don't get in the way of the story and the characters, but while Johnson's writing isn't verbose or elaborate or dense, it's certainly NOT transparent. Readers who pick this book up not knowing it's YA will probably not figure it out by the time they finish reading. And that is an interesting thing. Not good or bad, but interesting. Personally, I was sucked in, especially at the beginning. This book is about the journey, and while the ending of the book is more like a pause in that journey rather than a completed one (this trilogy I suspect will tell ONE BIG STORY, so reading order is important), I felt pretty satisfied by time I put the book down. There's so much richness in the world Johnson's created, and there's so much to enjoy and relish. It's not often you get a fantasy that's not set in a medieval or modern world, and the island/Hawaiian/Japanese elements just really worked for the book, as well as keeping the fantasy world fresh. Johnson's debut doesn't read like a debut at all: it's deliberate and controlled and I'm really looking forward to seeing where this story goes, because it is complex and it is so much about the journey that I practically have no expectations. At least, not yet. Maybe by time I get my hands on the second book, The Burning City, I will. :)

Review Style: it's a pretty complex book, so I'm taking my time with this review. Expect spoilers, but in some cases, spoilers will ruin a book, and in others, they really don't. I think this is a case where spoilers don't ruin a book, but only YOU know how spoilers affect your reading experience, so if spoilers bother you beyond belief, there's no need to click the link below, which takes you to my LJ. You have everything you need right here.

However, the LJ does offer a reading list as well as cover commentary, so if the overall discussion doesn't bother you, hop on over! As always, comments and discussion are most welcome. :)

REVIEW: Alaya Dawn Johnson's RACING THE DARK

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December: The Last Unicorn by Peter S. Beagle
January: The Adoration of Jenna Fox by Mary E. Pearson

I'm definitely feeling much better about everything in general. Most notably, I think I'm starting to move away from my codependent tendencies. I don't need someone else to make me happy. I think I'm finally realizing this and feel comfortable with this idea. Part of me is saying, "It's about fucking time you mopey dumbass!" I've known about this issue for years but never really did anything about it and fell into the same patterns. Over. And over again.

I feel much more relaxed about things. I guess most of my major stressors are sorta taken care of at the moment. I'm not really worried about money (which normally bugs me), outside of saving to move out. Honestly though, I really couldn't spend enough not to have any left over. I'm just not used to making this much, so I'm frugal with what I have automatically. Besides, money comes and money goes. It's part of life. I also am not worried about making anyone else happy right now either (since I'm not in a relationship), so that helps as well.

I took full advantage of the weekend by hanging with Derek and basically learning to let loose and jump at opportunities. Or at least as much as I can handle. I can't keep up with that kid too much though. I need built in downtime sometimes. That's just how I am. I saw Tim for the first time in awhile, ate some nachos, watched some football. Awesometastic.

Then, met up with Derek again at the Viaduct, which honestly is just not a place I like. I want to appreciate the heart and spirit of it (which I understand, being DIY and supporting hardcore/Tacoma music scene, etc) but the South Tacoma/Sound community is just not what I'm about. There's too much pent up aggression, pride, and inner turmoil that I can see in all of those people that makes me uncomfortable. I think it hits a bit too close to home with my past. Plus, I'm just not an angry person. I love good hardcore/metal music, but the place just isn't for me. Plus, the sound was just awful. I mean, just dreadful. There's no excuse for that at an established venue.

Then, I met up with my new friend, Melanie, at her place to watch Casper (which has Devon Sawa in it, which means it's awesome) with a bunch of people and had tons of fun just joking around. In talking to her, I just felt this cool connection where we have tons of similar interests and ideas on stuff. It was refreshing.

The best part was I didn't feel this unnecessary pressure to push things toward something else. This was different and awesome, especially since I worried I might fall into this pattern again. Needless to say, Melanie, me, and our friends will be hanging out a lot, which will be good times.

Making friends for the sake of making friends. I mean, what a concept, right? Fuckin' brilliant. If only I'd learned this shit about six years ago. I would have saved myself a lot of trouble. Well, I guess this is growing up.

The Swellers and Less Than Jake at the Showbox tomorrow. I'm stoked.

November 29th, 2009

As an aside, here are a few thoughts.

I'm sick. That sucks. I also shaved my beard off- I had a Gordon Freeman goatee for a while, and even though I intend to regrow it, it was uneven and simply not working. I need to have even growth, and maintain that. I'm also frustrated with work, as my hours are not as numerous as I'd like, and I want some extra spending money. Even so, I finished getting my fillings, so once I'm done paying off my credit card, I'll have that extra spending money.

Anyway, now to the foggy little town of Silent Hill.

There's a new Silent Hill game coming out for the Wii that I am greatly looking forward to. As it approached, I wasn't sure what to expect from it, and I've heard mixed reviews. A lot of the die hard fans are dreading it, claiming that it isn't Silent Hill, but what I see in the die hard fans is a wish to return to Silent Hill 2, which is probably one of the best survival horror games ever, and in most fans' opinion, the best game in the series.

This game is a revisioning of the first game, set in modern time. It doesn't take place in 1985 like the original, and there are some new characters. What I got from the articles I've read is this game is like comparing the Burton Batman to the Nolan Batman- both have many of the same characters and same concept, but are fundamentally very different films, although both are good.

And that's all I ask of this game- that it be good. I realize that Silent Hill will never be back to Silent Hill 2, and I don't mind. We had our perfect game (well, it wasn't perfect, but it was compelling, had great atmosphere, and an awesome story.), and now we need to look forward and find new ways to be scared, to carry forth the eerie atmosphere, and have our mind's fucked with.

So, here comes Silent Hill, Shattered Memories. The music is done by Akira Yamaoka, who did the music for the entire series, and is considered the creative genius behind the first few games. I've listened to the soundtrack, and rather enjoy it. So, in the sound department, things look pretty good.

And now to the gameplay. It is on the Wii, which means the control is going to be very different, but there is a chance it might not suck, unlike every other Silent Hill game, ever. It uses the cell phone as a menu system, so decisions must be done on the fly, similar to Silent Hill 4, and there is no combat, just running and hiding.

I personally like this idea. But it gets better.

The game starts with a personality test, given to you by a certain Dr. K, who I assume is Doctor Kaufmann, although in a very different form. The original Dr Kaufmann was a corrupt cultist posing as the administrator of a hospital, which he used to traffic massive amounts of drugs and finance the cult, but this Dr. K appears to be a friendly psychologist who wishes to discuss the events that happened to you in Silent Hill. The results of your personality profile, as well as your responses to his questions help shape your character's appearance, the appearance of the world, as well as the paths available to you. From what I've heard, no game is the same- if you respond one way, you will be able to go here first. If you respond another, you wake up in another location, and the monsters look different. Your choices during the game continue to dynamically shape everything, and there is a very good chance of multiple endings.

So, thus far it looks pretty good. The things I don't like are the ability to call NPCs. Silent Hill is supposed to be about isolation, but by allowing you to talk to people, it cuts that short. However, by taking away that ability, I think they could really do some good- imagine, you need to call someone to get to a new location, but suddenly your phone isn't getting reception. Oh, and now there are monsters and you can't get in touch with the person you needed to unlock the door to the next area for you. Damn AT&T.

Another thing I don't care for so much is the ice. Instead of the rusty bloodbath that Silent Hill normally has as it's otherworld, it's this snow covered wonderland of pain and fear, which on some levels is fine, assuming the character has some sort of psychological aversion to ice, or possibly bad memories of a snowstorm, but the hardcore Silent Hill nerd in me is screaming in nerd rage.

Even so, if it scares me, all is forgiven. Which brings me to my next section, a review of the Silent Hill games. This is more for myself, as writing these things down helps me to solidify my thoughts on them. Spoilers, so be warned.

The first Silent Hill game was titled, aptly, Silent Hill, and followed Harry Mason as he searches for his daughter in the snowy town of Silent Hill. He attempts to follow her, but soon finds the town is overrun with bizarre monsters, and eventually finds out the truth- His daughter is an avatar of sorts of a girl born years earlier, who was burned by her own mother, Dahlia, one of the lead members of the town's cult, but despite the horrific burns, she lived, empowered by the god living inside her, another result of the cult's activities. However, her wounds never fully healed, and her psychic powers began to manifest, creating monsters and turning the town into the hellish rusted world which Harry has to fight his way through, encountering various other lost souls, including Lisa, a frightened nurse, Doctor Kaufmann, the corrupt hospital administrator, Dahlia, a strange cultist, and Cybil, a rather dykish cop. As the game continues, depending on the choices you made in the game, various things occur, but in the cannon ending, the 'god' is born from Alessa, and Harry defeats it. Alessa is reborn as an infant, and Harry raises her as his own. Mind you, I haven't played this game in ages, so I am a bit rusty on it, although I intend on playing it again soon.

Silent Hill 2 has nothing to do with the predecessor, but is quite possibly the best game in the series. It follows James Sunderland, a normal guy whose wife died of some unnamed disease years ago. He gets a letter from her, claiming she is waiting for him in Silent Hill. Unable to go on living a normal life after his loss, he decides the best course of action is to seek out his dead wife in Silent Hill. Once there, he meets a number of lost souls, as well as a woman that looks strikingly like his wife, but has a rather slutty personality. He also encounters a number of monsters that have a disturbing feminine quality about them, as well as a horrible demon that rapes and murders said monsters, then goes after you- the aptly named Pyramid Head, who has come to be the sex symbol, mascot, and most frightening aspect of the series, and has gone to appear in Homecoming and the film, despite having no place in either. As the game progresses, it becomes apparent that James, along with most of the lost souls there, is losing his sanity, and at the end he comes to the horrible conclusion that he euthanized his wife a week earlier, and is delusional. Finally, he defeats Pyramid Head, who represents his guilt, and faces a twisted Maria, or Mary, depending on the ending. There are multiple endings to this game as well, and depending on your choices, you can leave with Laura, an 'innocent' (very annoying) little girl Mary wanted to adopt, kill yourself, attempt to resurrect Mary using cult rituals, get abducted by aliens, or a number of other endings.

Silent Hill 3 takes on the plot of the first game, as you play a teenage girl named Heather whose life is turned upside down when a normal trip to the mall turns into a trip to the rust covered nightmare world of Silent Hill. It becomes apparent that Claudia, a member of the cult believes that Heather has god inside her, and soon it is revealed that Heather is the infant that Harry found, all grown up, but still containing the evil inside her. Claudia kills her father, driving her to go to Silent Hill to seek her revenge. Aided by Douglas, a detective hired by Claudia to find Heather, and Vincent, a corrupt member of the cult, she eventually manages to destroy the 'god' inside her, which Claudia ingests and births, killing her. Heather finally kills the god, and along with that, the faction of the cult, as Vincent is killed earlier. The game has good storytelling, and a likable protagonist, capable of turning into a sailor moon type character, and some of the most disturbing scenery of the game. It also features one of the best lines in the Silent Hill series, "Monsters? They look like monsters to you?"

Silent Hill 4: The Room is generally seen as the turning point for the series, as it is nowhere near as good as the previous games. It has a great amount of potential, despite not initially being written as a Silent Hill game, but being roughly adapted into one simply for the potential of marketing it as such and making a greater profit. The plot follows loner Henry Townshend, who finds himself stranded in his apartment, only able to escape into nightmare worlds where he witnesses murders. Eventually, it is revealed that a cultist from the Silent Hill cult believes the apartment to be his mother, and is using it as a nexus for some ritual to birth one of the cult's gods. To put it frankly, it's really weird. Still, the biggest fault of the game is that it is unfinished. Terrible combat, horrible repetitiveness, and a general feeling that, 'they could have done so much more' haunt this game, and make it an overall very difficult game to like. Despite this, it has some really amazing scenes that are disturbingly gross, but utterly fascinating at the same time. Still, the biggest fault is that it simply doesn't make sense most of the time, and seems like it tries too hard to be art instead of horror. The biggest frustration is that, with more development, it had the potential to be a truly great game, but blew it by releasing too early.

After Silent Hill 4, it was announced that there would be a prequel to the Silent Hill games, done by an American studio. I saw screenshots from it and was thoroughly unimpressed. Thankfully, said American studio had it wrangled from them, and given to a British studio that actually knew how to create games. The result was a game for the PSP called Silent Hill 0rigins. Many people complained about this game, but I felt it was a call back to the first three games, and while lacking the story depth, or incredible scares of the earlier games, it got the atmosphere, feel, and look of Silent Hill down superbly. Even so, people love to say it was a terrible game, and while I have to admit I enjoyed it, it had it's flaws. Still, it is the best survival horror offering I've played on a handheld console, so in that respect, I give it props.

After that, Silent Hill 5: Homecoming was released. This game was terrible. It relied on cheap scares, combat, and oversexualized graphics instead of atmosphere, good writing, and horror. It follows a veteran, Alex Shepherd as he returns to his hometown... Not Silent Hill. Some other town, near Silent Hill. His hometown is slowly being taken over by the evil of Silent Hill, and it is revealed that his family is part of a counter cult to the evil of Silent Hill, and throughout the game he comes to this fact, and finally strikes a killing blow at the cult, all while trying to find his brother, who turns out to be dead, accidentally killed by him. Oh, and he never was in the military, he was institutionalized. And pyramid head kills his mom. Terrible game. And horrible graphics- the hair goes through someone's face at one point, and for the most part looks like it is made out of plastic. I know the xbox is capable of creating believable hair, which is why this is so frustrating. But what is even more frustrating was how bad the game was.

And now, we have Silent Hill: Shattered Memories. I did not have high hopes for this game, seeing how bad SH5 was, but after seeing trailers, reading articles, and whatnot, I have to say I am intrigued. I will not be overly sad if it sucks, but from what I've heard it's a good game. It isn't anything like any Silent Hill game before it, but at this point, I don't mind. Silent Hill has to evolve. If I want to play a game that is like Silent Hill 1-3, I'll play Silent Hill 1-3. All I want is for this game to get under my skin, scare me, and mess with my head. Getting the atmosphere right would be nice too. But really, that's all I want. Scare me, please.

Germboy, out/Peace.

November 28th, 2009

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Enter the dark, magical world of The House of Night, a world very much like our own, except here vampyres have always existed. Sixteen-year-old Zoey Redbird has just been Marked as a fledgling vampyre and joins the House of Night, a school where she will train to become an adult vampire. That is, if she makes it through the Change--and not all of those who are Marked do. It sucks to begin a new life, especially away from her friends, and on top of that, Zoey is no average fledgling. She has been chosen as special by the vampyre Goddess Nyx. Zoey discovers she has amazing powers, but along with her powers come bloodlust and an unfortunate ability to Imprint her human ex-boyfriend. To add to her stress, she is not the only fledgling at the House of Night with special powers: When she discovers that the leader of the Dark Daughters, the school's most elite group, is misusing her Goddess-given gifts, Zoey must look deep within herself for the courage to embrace her destiny--with a little help from her new vampyre friends.

I was pleasantly surprised that I was so engrossed in the first book in the House of Night series. I really enjoyed the storyline and I really like the unique take on "vampyres" in this series. It does remind me a bit of Hogwarts, but to me, that is a positive thing. The only thing I did not care for is some of the immature language spouted off by some of the characters, but then again, this is written for a younger audtience than myself. However, I feel like as this series progresses, it will get even more darker and more interesting. I cannot wait to read the rest of the books.

Books read this year: 46/50.

November 26th, 2009

Welcome to my hell.

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Last night, I dreamed of two worlds, both hellish and horrible, awaiting my presence.

The first was the inside of some alien world, a giant cityscape full of horrific monsters that used horrifying technologies to torture and warp those who they hunted, and I happened to be one such being. It was akin to Half Life 2, the inner citadel parts. In this place, bad things happened, and even if someone could somehow irk out a survival, they would eventually be destroyed by a onslaught of arbitrarily bad luck and end very badly. You could find peace there, but the fear of things always going wrong kept with you, forever.

The other was a house, constantly burning but never falling down. The inside was full of demons and evil spirits, and once you were inside the house you could never find your way out. Doorways led to empty voids, and the unbearable heat and noise of the house constantly grated on your ears. You might find friends in this world, but most of the time they would die shortly after finding you- caught on some shard of wood that, on a whim, thrust out from the wall and gutted them. Still, there was some sort of peace in this place, as despite the constant burning, blood, and evil, the knowledge that this was the worst of this place gave you a sense of relaxation. I found I could sleep here, and on some level I found I preferred this hell over the alien world, and soon found myself happy to be one of the lunatics wandering its corridors.

I recalled this dream earlier today when I went over to Kurt's place, and we began dinking around with playstation emulators. After a while, I told him he needed to play Silent Hill, and I remembered this dream- and its meaning. The two worlds represent my favorite videogame series- Half Life, and Silent Hill.

And while I love both, I feel most at home in that foggy town, with its evil nightmarish reality waiting behind the serene silence. I would rather face down the horrors of my own nightmares, or face the horrors of an evil cult, than be turned into a Combine Stalker.

However, that's because knowing myself, I'd probably join the evil cult, and say creepy stuff like, "Monsters? They look like monsters to you?"

Germboy, out/Peace.

November 25th, 2009

Juxtaprudence

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I read Best of Craigslist when it updates. There are usually some gems. This month, there are a couple that I find really amusing because of their juxtaposition.

First there's these two: problem and resolution.

And then there's these: example, then rage.

Lo, Malinda: Ash

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Ash (2009)
Written by: Malinda Lo
Genre: YA/Fairy Tale/Fantasy
Pages: 264 (Hardcover)

The premise: in unfairly simple terms, Ash is a lesbian re-telling of Cinderella. But that's an unfairly simply description. Sure, you've got the Cinderella myth, but rather than falling for the typical Prince Charming, Ash finds herself attracted to the King's Huntress, and she'd do anything to stay with her. Even if it means bargaining with the fairy, a risk that could very well make her lose everything.

My Rating

Worth the Cash: note I'm giving this rating to a hardcover. I always feel that carries more weight than if the book were a paperback, for obvious reasons. At any rate, this is a very enjoyable read that I tore through in a day, but the prose isn't light so much as it reflects a certain fairy tale quality, perfect for a re-telling of the Cinderella story. Ash is a likable heroine you can empathize with, and even though she makes mistakes, the mistakes are her own and she works to fix things the best she can. The love story itself needed a little bit more development between the first meeting and the admission of love, but I did like the characters together, and I liked that Ash was attracted to a person instead of the wealth and power a partner could bring her, which signifies not only the difference between Kaisa the Huntress and Prince Charming, but also between Kaisa and Sidhean. One of the most important messages of the book: loves doesn't ask for anything in return, and love will love you for who you are, not who you aren't. What a simple lesson, and what an easy one to forget. Malinda Lo is definitely on my watch list, and I look forward to her next offering, whatever it may be and whenever it might arrive.

Review style: it's kind of a hard book to spoil, isn't it? I mean, anyone who knows the general Cinderella tale knows where the book is going, but the trick is, because it's a re-telling, you're on ground that's familiar but not, and you tend to forget it's a re-telling you're reading. At any rate, there's spoilers, but nothing that doesn't correlate to the actual fairy tale.

The full review, if you're interested, may be found at my LJ. As always, comments and discussion are most welcome. :)

REVIEW: Malinda Lo's ASH

Happy Reading!

DON'T FORGET: November's book challenge is drawing to a close, but you can still get your hands on Alaya Dawn Johnson's Racing the Dark. However, December's challenge has been announced, so if you want to get an early start on Peter S. Beagle's The Last Unicorn, we'd love to have you! Details on participation are here!

November 23rd, 2009

"...but i didn't want it to turn out this way..."

So, I had a more interesting day at work than usual. It was busy as all get out. Phones ringing off the hook, lots of patients checking in, etc.

The business wasn't interesting but someone came into the clinic today who I used to know. I knew her back in junior high. In fact, I had a huge crush on her for a while. It was... interesting. She didn't recognize me at first, until I reminded her of my name. Once it clicked, she seemed happy to see me (of course, she was really sick so I didn't expect too big of a reaction). She said I looked a lot more grown up. She didn't look too different, but she looked good. We briefly discussed our post grad living situations, etc. I found myself reverting back to my shy, awkward ways from back them. I felt myself blushing a little even.

I felt like I really wanted to make a good impression. I suddenly cared about what I looked like, etc. But I suppose that's normal for anyone who sees someone from their past. I wonder if I ever really let go of that silly schoolyard crush...

It was kind of a random situation, I mean what are the odds, right? I happen to be working THAT clinic, filling in for HER provider on the day she happened to come in for flu like symptoms. Crazy stuff.

I need fun stuff/fun people to fill next weekend with. I'm off early on Friday and, as my loyal readers know, suddenly find myself with no plans for the entire weekend. So let me know what's going on!

"You'll be accepting my apology for taking things too seriously. Sometimes I'm old enough to to keep routines,
Sometimes I'm child enough to scream for everything I broke in two,
You're barely missing me, I'm missing you and everything you do,
I really do, I really do, sure I do."

I remembered how much I love The Get Up Kids today. Particularly, Something To Write Home About.

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